When I picked up the 8 of spades faced down from the ground, I didn’t initially know what it meant but it felt significant to keep. I went into a really long, deep and dark depression that felt like a death. I tried to make things easy, but instead I pressured him to tell me what his intentions were. All seemed to be well, but I worried that it wasn’t. We spent the rest of the evening together and I felt more safe and comforted by him than anyone in my life. As we walked into the building we were outside of together I picked up an 8 of spades card from the ground. That’s the best way I can describe the initial feeling.

When I first saw him, he was a synesthesia vision in yellow.

Would it have been worth it? Who knows? But the Nine of Diamonds seems to be saying no and so am I. At the time, it was hard but now you look back and realize you could only have stayed in that relationship if you had wilfully congealed. Give thanks for this!Īnd so in a magnificent Trickster-level flourish, the card reappeared right after you made the exact dazzling transformation that it was inviting you to do in April. When people move on shortly after a break-up and especially with someone so hilariously non-you, it is a fantastic affirmation that you were right – SO right. I said this for Cancerians in the Horoscopes but it is broadly relevant for many of us: the Saturn-Pluto conjunction can’t be lightened but we can build strength. The months since April have been such a challenge, with the Saturn, South Node and Pluto being heavyweight life and love challenges that demand an equally forceful or substantial response.

But I think that the bird is a phoenix, symbolic of the metamorphosis she made to gain both material and psychological security. She is a woman of means, depicted in the garden she created, a falcon on her wrist. The Nine of Pentacles is one of my favorite cards and really the playing cards just evolved from Tarot, the symbolism stripped but still apparent to those in the know. Switch random playing cards to synchronicity cued playing cards for the real answer. It’s such a good example of a repeating sign or timely affirmation.

King of diamonds playing card